Dear Friends,
Yesterday, I realized with a shock that it had been more than a year since I left New York and returned to Germany. And that I have been pitifully out of touch with most of you. What had happend? Does the process of reintegrating yourself in your own country taken up so much time and energy?
The truth is, I had made a conscious effort not to think too much of life in New York and the people I have been close with. I know it must sound odd to you but I felt that I would never „arrive“ over here if I thought too much about the days that we spent together in the Apple. So my plan was to turn back into a German as quickly as possible and put all my energy into building a new life here.
Of course the plan didn’t work at all. According to my friends, I spent the first months after my return constantly talking about life in New York (I could swear that wasn’t the case). I got restless when I spent more than two hours at a sit-down dinner – and a good Beergarden „Brotzeit“ (our equivalent to Tea Time) can take up to four hours! What’s worse, I ran into people who made me understand that I was „too American,“ i.e. too friendly, too energetic or too bold for their taste. They in return were too reserved, too introvert and too unpolite for my taste!
Things changed gradually in April, after I had finished my online journalism program and finally found the time to reflect a bit upon my situation. I now feel that, one year after my „exodus,“ I have finally made peace with the way people think and behave over here. I can see how the German way of questioning everything can be a good thing, because it means that people do not buy into every fad that comes their way. I can see that the lonely-fighter mentality that I have watched in many people my age and older is steadly being replaced by a sense of connectedness and mutual support. And I am actually enjoying the slower pace of life that makes itself felt everywhere in life, professional or private.
Ah, and the blog. You may have noticed that I have been writing about a wild choice of topics and in various styles and even changing the subtitle of my blog several times. That is a pretty acurate reflection of the mindset that I have had in the past months -- chronically out of focus and taking everything in at the same time.
I appreciate those of you who have kept reading my blog for jumping through all these hoops with me. And yes, please bear with me if I tell you that I’d like to change the focus of this blog one more time. I’d like Babelfish Cafe to be a place that where me and my German friends explain some of the odd, fascinating or simply incomprehensive things that are happening in my country (and other places outside of the US). In return, I’d like to talk with you about people and events in the US that upset or intrigue the rest of us.
We need to talk about whether or not Harry Potter is a metrosexual from Germany. ☺ We need to discuss why Arnold Schwarzenegger had no choice but to immigrate to the US and why we are so fortunate (or not!) to get Brad Pitt in return. And we need to discuss the civil liberty issues that keep threatening democracy on both sides of the Atlantic. Substance and fun stuff, the high- and the low-brow. Whatever you favor, I’d like to chat, debate, speculate, inquire, muse (and sometimes bitch) with you the way we do when we get together.
This was a rather longwound way of saying „I miss your wonderful company“ and „sorry for not having kept in touch.“ I hope you will get back to me one way or another, so that I don’t have to post more longish explanations here. ☺
Love and lots of good thoughts from Munich,
Birte